Lyrics of Zhang Xuefei's 18 years of life

When my world was crashing all around me all my hope was gone

I was drowning in darkness

barely hanging on

out of the shadows you appeared and helped me breathe again

so when it all goes to black

I won't start to fall Cause I can find you in the shadows

He was born in the warm winter when it snowed in October 1997

The first time he cried, maybe he was too strange to the world

But he didn't smile at that time, and he didn't shed tears for anyone

He fell asleep peacefully in the arms of his mother, who had just experienced pain

It was his happiest time, though short

But no one called him a fool or lazy

In kindergarten, he never envied that other people would drive their children home

His father raised him over his head, and the picture stopped in the sunset

He began to understand when he was six years old

I bought cigarettes for my father and washed my mother's feet

He began to understand the fairy tales that he heard as a child

Teach him to be a man and tell him to repay each other with a drop of water

Five years later, at the age of 11, he understood the meaning of life

The world told him that there were more than video games and toys in his life

His first love didn't like his favorite pop songs

But he didn't understand why there were so many in the world

When my world was crashing all around me all my hope was gone

I was drowning in darkness

barely hanging on

out of the shadows you appeared and helped me breathe again

so when it all goes to black

I won't start to fall Cause I can find you in the shadows

At 14, he left home for the first time

When he needed help most, his friend left him

In the street at midnight, he cried and wanted to see his family

He learned that the only door in the world that will always be open to you is your home

At 15, he wondered why his eyes were red

Because he understood love and what is pain

How do you feel when someone asks someone who has hurt you

He told him it wasn't hurt, it was growth

At 16, he realized the burden on his shoulders

He doesn't just live for himself, because he has too many fetters

In the face of the family's request is not to drink

It's about trying to get there

Don't let anyone down and get the chance

He was not rich but not poor, young but not mediocre

He had a dream of his own, and his ideas were free

He was told that he couldn't change his destiny

Genius says he's lucky, but he doesn't care

When my world was crashing all around me all my hope was gone

I was drowning in darkness

barely hanging on

out of the shadows you appeared and helped me breathe again

so when it all goes to black

I won't start to fall Cause I can find you in the shadows

When you get on the train of life time

Before reincarnation, there are more and more passengers around

Your confusion and problems are hidden in this car

Only you can find the real answer to the question

I wrote this song to myself and to you as well

Do you have the same or similar experience as me

I want to tell myself that I should never be afraid to lose

Even if the world collapses and life is too complicated, I will not admit defeat

Then let the storm come down like a bullet in my face

Let others scold me. I insist on going on a long voyage myself

Let the fool continue to laugh. I have my own dream

Even if you give me time tunnel to start over, I still do

Want to grasp the fate in the hand, do not care about others call me a fool

I'll get up as long as I don't die

Make the most of what you want to do to get me to the top

2015 Zhang Xuefei I live in the 18-year-old sky

When my world was crashing all around me all my hope was gone

I was drowning in darkness

barely hanging on

out of the shadows you appeared and helped me breathe again

so when it all goes to black

I won't start to fall Cause I can find you in the shadows