It's hard to love
It's a Chinese idiom, Pinyin is x ī NY ǎ NGN á nzhu ā, which means that there are some thoughts or emotions in the heart that can't be controlled. From journey to the West.
Notes on Idioms
I: in ancient times, we used fingers or claws to scratch.
The origin of Idioms
The fifty first chapter of Wu Chengen's journey to the West in Ming Dynasty: "I suddenly looked up and saw his golden cudgel leaning against the east wall. I was so glad that he was very excited."
Idiom usage
I don't know how to be happy.
It's hard to love
run hither and thither like rats and wolves - shǔ cuàn láng bēn