in great disillusion
Bookish and aggressive, a Chinese idiom, Pinyin sh ū K ō ngdu ō Du ō, which means sigh, indignation and surprise. It's from the new words of the world.
The origin of Idioms
It is said in Liu Yiqing's Shishuo Xinyu · chumian of the Southern Song Dynasty: "the army of Yin Zhongjun was abolished. In Xin'an, he wrote all day long. The officials and people of Yangzhou sought justice, chased it and looked at it secretly. They only wrote "aggressive and strange things."
Idiom usage
Used as an object or attribute; used in writing. The book is too empty to understand, but the fou is too loud to be heard. ——Jin Yuan Haowen's poem Zhenping county Zhai Qinghuai
in great disillusion
long for a rain cloud during a drought - dà hàn wàng yún
Small power and heavy responsibility - lì xiǎo rèn zhòng