I'm ashamed of myself
The Chinese idiom, Pinyin is h ú NC á ns è ch ǐ, which means to lose color in fear. It's from Shiyuan written by Sikongtu in Tang Dynasty.
Idiom explanation
[idiom] the soul is ashamed and pale, and [Pinyin]; [interpretation] refers to the loss of color and fear.
The origin of Idioms
Sikong Tu's Shi Yuan in the Tang Dynasty: "the two sons are so ashamed that they can listen to Yu Yin."
I'm ashamed of myself
the lofty sentiments of fearing no hardships in the open - mù tiān xí dì