In spite of oneself
Chinese idiom, Pinyin is f è Nb ù g ù sh ē n, meaning to move forward bravely, regardless of personal safety. The same as "desperate". It's from flowers in the mirror.
Analysis of Idioms
[synonym]: be desperate for one's life and be afraid of death
The origin of Idioms
Chapter 37 of Jing Hua Yuan: "brother Lin, because of his feeling for the son of the world, brother Tang only knew that righteousness was the trend. He was so angry that he regarded the palace as a child's play."
Idiom usage
It's formal; it's predicate, attributive, adverbial; it's going forward bravely.
In spite of oneself
Change the beam and change the column - gǎi liáng huàn zhù